I am Jill Reed, a loving woman, mother of two (2) brilliant minded adult sons, and I acknowledge the little girl I have always been. A writer of love letters, to friends and family, and writing poetry always make me happy. I received a letter from Mark Hamilton some time ago. I have one regret that I either didn’t receive the letter earlier, or that if I received it, at an earlier date, I was not ready to accept what was offered.
I have always enjoyed reading and self-improvement of this flaw-filled person that I am. So, when I got the letter, I decided to engulf myself in the 3k pages of Mark’s writings. The writings contain a lot of information I was aware of, but the key to his writings, is his ability to deliver the message that I had heard all of my life. The message spoken by: my parents, teachers, preachers, politicians, about how my actions would make or break me. Meaning, I was capable and needed to act responsibly. Back then, I was acting according to an adult’s desires for me.
I have considered that message most of my life, when I was thinking for myself. But, sadly, I spent many hours, each day for years, gripped in the “what if or I can’t” of life. I followed authority, I acted as a child should “to be seen and not heard” and I lost years of my life trying to please others all the while losing myself. Don’t misunderstand me, I am an incredibly happy person because I know it is up to me. But, once focused on a goal, I would run to it, even if it was someone else’s desire for me.
I no longer accept whatever comes my way. I have been successful in a lifelong career in the minerals business, I have been a small business owner, and I know that all along I only wanted to write and love people. I have always shared my love and happiness with others, except when I felt my own happiness was threatened by dishonesty. Listening to self, I have answers, I know whether I am behaving right or wrong. I know that I will face the consequences of my actions, as will everyone else. This way of living has nothing to do with religion or politics, it has to do with self… the way we are created with great minds, which differentiates us from apes that do things the same, day in and out.
Mark Hamilton helped me understand the origins of myself, and that is to create happiness doing what I love so that I might flourish. I am now writing, and I see that my love of people and a desire to help them is all I ever wanted and needed. I feel successful, I feel appreciated, I am receiving love from my family and friends, and I know you can also experience this with the material if you choose to accept it.