Until now I had not written my testimonial. I cannot not bring myself to share the the traumas that life has wrought in detail with the anyone especially the anti-civilization. I have tried however to relay the benefits derived from the Neothink society. However, It may not be what you are looking. Here is my story. I was born into a large family with many brothers and sisters. I alone was born with certain abilities and a unique perspective which mostly alienated me from my family. They could not understand who I was or why I was so different.
My uniqueness had advantages and disadvantages as most everything does. One of the advantages was it allowed me to flex my curiosity without too much parental restraint. And unlike my siblings I was not forced to conform to anyone’s standards, instead I was allowed to explore life and question everything. The serenity prayer was not written for me. I refused to accept anything I didn’t agree with, and sought ways to get around it or change it.
As my dad was a Baptist church deacon my siblings were raised to accept the churches teachings. I was not, my Mom explained to me that I was different then their other children and I needed to find my own way. Which to a child seemed to mean something was wrong with me. Later, when people labeled my uniqueness as a curse from the devil and shied away from me because my abilities frightened them, it was hard not to believe that was the reason I was not baptized as a child. I wanted desperately to find a rational explanation as to why I was different, and to find the outside source that would provide answers to life’s puzzle.
In and outside the classroom I studied man, his physiology and psychology, archeology, various religions, both ancient and new, and various philosophical and social paradigms. I studied natural and supernatural phenomenon. I wanted to learn about everything in an effort to understand life. I studied death and afterlife experiences, because I hated that death regardless if it resulted in ascension to heaven, dissension to hell or reincarnation into another life as someone else, implied that present consciousness would cease to exist forever.
Throughout the years I searched, and adventures I experienced, the good, the bad and the ugly in this world, I never found the answers to the deepest questions of my soul. Until, that is, when Neothink found me.
By then, life itself had broken my spirit, leaving me skeptical of everything and concluding that our life was pre-designed,, it was destiny, there was no choice; as well as, bitter, “Why save money? When you die you can’t take it with you.” Inheritances and insurance was blood money in my eyes. I no longer wanted a degree in medicine, believing people were innately bad and miserable so “why should I save their unhappy lives?”; insurance companies decide on how to care for patients not doctors, besides when I succeeded in helping a patient heal and gave them hope, the medications caused more problems and they died anyway or one of the institutions they sought help from, would euthanize them due to their advanced age.
Like prehistoric man’s instinctive reaction of lying still and playing dead until the threat is gone. I chose to seclude myself from the world and cease all personal interaction with people, waiting for the end of days.
When I received the letter from Neothink, college had enhanced my analytical skills to the point of searching out just the straight forward facts, dismissing the anecdotal evidence as subjective, and inferences as merely ‘beating around the bush’ in an effort to obscure the facts. So naturally I did a computer search of the society, at least to verify they were real and not a scam. My search led me to the Neothink society. I read everything posted on that site; including the criticism and threats from others. Some things I agreed with, others I wasn’t quite sure about.
An article written by Frank Wallace really got my attention. and I found it to be both informative and useful so I took notes and then emailed my appreciation to the author. The letter from Neothink coupled with this particular article was enough to awaken the curiosity within me. So I ordered the heirlooms. The size of the volume stunned me, I recalled my old biology professor saying, “in order to fully understand any text you have to read it 5 times”. So, first I scanned it, picking and choosing which chapters seemed the most interesting to read first. Then I read the first and last chapters of the heirloom. Part of my weirdness is the inability to read a book without reading the ending first, my rationale is if I’m going to read it a total of 5 times where I begin is irrelevant. My previous studies of man helped me to fully understand the first chapter regarding the bicameral mind. My study of religion itself had long ago shown me there was no outside source to turn to for answers. But Neothink went further, helping me actualize that they are all within us; we need only look within for the strengths and solutions we seek. That beginning was enough to keep me interested and the heirlooms and Neothink Library are often used for reference when ever an issue arises that I need input on.
Neothink has awoken the curious child within, and revived life back into the spirit that had once seemed too battered and broken by traumas endured in the anti-civilized culture of our world, to ever be alive again. Did I find the answers to my questions of the soul in the Neothink heirlooms and library volumes? Yes, I did. My concerns regarding, my mortality was addressed by Neothink, and led me to various scientific foundations and research that are presently working to eradicate aging, and death. I personally became involved in a small way by allotting CPU time to Stanford University for the simulation of protein folding; I collected and submitted a soil sample to further enzyme research. I receive email updates and newsletters from these foundations to stay abreast of their progress. I also discovered a scientific basis for my innate abilities previously labeled a curse, and me a disciple of the devil by purveyors of mysticism. It ultimately led me to further research conducted in Russia and France which had recorded objective physical and physiological data that helped explain what occurred and how mental phenomenon was possible far more plausibly than the consciously un-evolved mystics ever did.
Since Neothink I began studying and working in herbal and naturopathic healthcare where I have seen more healing without dangerous side effects than I ever did in the 20 years working in Allopathic medicine. I have helped several people heal broken bones without casting within two weeks, using a simple cream that I charge only $5.00 for, a flu formula that helped a woman recover from pneumonia and a herbal remedy counteracts poisonous bites. I have chosen not to mass market these products however because the labs that want to mass produce the formulas also want to add poisonous chemicals and preservatives, and I will not allow that. To mass produce this myself is so highly regulated and cost-intensive I can only produce these products on an as-needed basis, until the day the anti-civilization releases their strangle hold on industry.