The Self Leader Secret
Freedom (part 3)
FREEDOM ( Part 3)
Since I had poured myself into my first apparent funnel to the future, which would in effect control much of my future planning, I needed to be able to explore freedom as I personally would come to define it. What I did not see were the invisible barriers that were begining to be built without my overt knowledge, which did not catch my attention in order to be able to avert this beginning bondage of my spirit…
The next layers of offense from society came somewhat in a simultaneous “attaching” to what I called my Life: God in the form of organized religion, choice of a political party by voting, entering the adult world of responsibility and taxes, and the finding and financing of a separate residence and vehicle from my family home came after Graduation from the University, and the forming of my friends and dating network.
I met people from all over the world in a Research Protocol Program, both Staff and patients, gained new knowledge and more intricate skills in my Profession, and more life experience in general with friends and romantic relationships. There was a major Air Force Base not too far away that yielded other world views when explored. It was fascinating to see how different some of my new friends were from myself in their life experience so far…What I identified with most were their free thinking minds and the fun they were used to conjuring up out of nowhere…I began realizing how small the world view was from the South. At the same time I observed how fantasies of the South had invaded their minds as well, LOL. I did see that learning a new perspective could be a two-way street in some instances!
The first strong guards against Self Authority and Self Leadership then began to exert even more subtle influences. All around me were living “role models” on every level to aspire to: the Professions to look up to (Doctors, Lawyers, successful Businessmen, Politicians, Professors, Ministers, etc), the world of status recognition of the previous list of persons, wealth and that which wealth can afford, the ways all these persons apparently ran their pick of the world systems according to their choice through “influence”, even the Arts were a hierarchy! On all sides were those persons and institutions telling all the inexperienced Youth=Do this, Do that, etc. with the implication that if you did follow their direction, you would get what you wanted out of Life itself!
At that point, just starting out in living our experiment, who of us thought to begin our questioning of their knowledge and wisdom? Especially if you had never been around anyone who did such questioning. The only people I knew like this, from out of history, spoke to me from books. Experience itself had to catch up with me, in order to help me see more clearly what to weed out and what to keep in my life…and it takes awhile to get this “experience”.
This may show you how naive I was: I worked with a nurse Anesthetist who was around 45 yrs.old. I actually thought she had solved the riddle of Life, how it worked, and knew all you needed to know to live! She was always giving me advice…Later, I remember hearing a Nutritionist who was ~35 yrs.old talk about having “problems” to overcome…I remember being unaware and uninformed that an adult could have a problem that was a real problem…My own family was rather dysfunctional, and I just thought that all other of those happy successful people had those answers and attained their happiness early in life. That at some point you were a “done deal” so to speak, LOL…Or so it seemed.