The Self Leader Secret
Find yourself and know the purpose of yourself to be happy
A soul was born empty and as such, was alone on its long journey into creation. This soul was blind, and perceiving itself as without a body floated aimlessly into the solitude of the deep. And so it was, hoping to find hope and a meaning for an existence without embodiment. The darkness was forever, and its vastness great; and in all the space of time and movement for which this soul found itself floating, there was nothing and no one that could look upon this soul and describe to it what its appearance was.
In solitude it motioned through the black universe waiting to feel the sensation of touch which would confirm its existence to itself in the absence of another. The thoughts of this solitary new born as it moved into existence were as follows:
I am moving through the darkness. I can feel myself, but, where am I? I feel the black vast void and try to reach out to touch something.I can’t find my sense of touch, where am I? What am I? I have to ask myself………. How did this happen? Where did I originate? What is this place? Why do I feel that I must see something that will teach me who I am, what I am, and where I am. The only thing I can feel is my essence moving through this blackness. This must be what I am. Am I only an essence of the darkness? How do I know that this which I move through is darkness? Where did this knowledge come from, to name a thing that as yet has not been seen? Is this what I am…….the blackness, the darkness? How can I have knowledge of what it is to see, to have site? How can I see through something while having no physical form, am I only an essence? I do not feel a density to my being…..there is nothing solid about me and yet I have feelings of being connected to something. I know that I am something moving through the darkness, but what am I longing for? Why do I feel there is more? This darkness is so empty.
How do I know what it is to feel if I have no density, no physical body?
It is lonely in the darkness because I see nothing; I only feel that I am something moving through this dark space. Is this just a black hole somewhere in infinity? It now seems that I am an embodiment of darkness. Can darkness think and feel as I do? How do I know what it is to feel if I have no density, no physical body? Am I just a thought and feeling? If only I could see what I am. If I could see my embodiment then maybe I could see more than this ethereal darkness. Is there a shape beyond the darkness? I hear only the sound of myself moving through the vast darkness of space and I feel alone. This causes me to think again, am I only this vast darkness? This cannot be for darkness is a void, nothingness, and nothingness has no particular thought or feeling I tell myself. Who can I discuss these thoughts with? How can I express who I am when there is only nothingness? I tell myself, “Truly I am alone in this vast dark space.” How long will I experience this dark nothingness? Is this the eternity of my life span? I cannot bare it.
I continued moving through the darkness and thought to myself; maybe I need to look for a direction in which to move so that I can reach something besides myself in this dark silent nothingness. I have been moving in a straight path through this nothingness for how long I do not know. In this darkness I have no sense of which direction I am moving. Maybe If I can go faster I will then feel my essence brushing past the darkness to a degree that will give me a sense of which direction I am moving. Let me try……. I closed the vision of sight that I will call an orbital vision, (these eyes), and let my mind move me faster and faster through the touch of darkness.
I thought to myself, I dare not open my eyes for I may become disillusioned with the continual dark nothingness for which I feel myself moving. I do feel something now. I feel a touch of passage; something is giving me a sense of embodiment as I swiftly move through the darkness that is a void. I feel as though I have a shape, a form, something is parting the path of darkness and I sense as though I am as a swift force parting a path through the darkness.
This is something. This sensation I will call a feeling because I feel myself moving due to the air brushing past me as I move faster and faster through the void. Then it occurs to my thought that I must be something, I must have an embodiment if I can feel the darkness brush past me. This thought gives me a new hope a renewed energy causing me to move faster and faster with heightened anticipation of what this nothing may become. Then it dawned on me, I had awakened something within me as I rapturously continued speeding through the black void of soundless darkness.
Life is immortal and one should know how to be happy living the life
I had broken through to understand that I indeed had some form as this form did embody my thoughts and feelings. The dark wind continued to brush past my being and I felt a sensation that I had not known. It was a grand and all encompassing sense of contentment, something I wish to call joy, an essential contentment within my being. That was it! I realized that I had a being, and embodiment of some form that was able to contain not only my thoughts but now alas my feelings. With this new enlightening, I received a strong surge of force as if a joyful energy and I heard a voice from the wind saying, “Pass through this place, a place I have prepared for you,” and at once I seemed to break through the dense darkness.
As I punctured through this tunnel of vast darkness I opened my eyes to behold something shimmering below me. “Below me I thought!?” I thought as if to question myself as I seemingly gravitated towards this lower shimmering atmospheric density I viewed below me. Yes there is something in the direction below me, it is different from the total darkness for which I have been moving. It changes shape, there seems to be some type of light shimmering and slithering over the surface of what I see below me. As I gaze in amazement at what I am seeing, at once I feel a spark of something other than the black darkness for which I have been traveling through. With this new revelation, continually I focused my thoughts on moving faster and faster in the direction below me.
Then I understood for the first time that beyond the darkness lay possible directions of travel. Maybe I am not alone I said to myself. Is there more than this dark void? Could it be that there are other essences’ also moving through this vast dark space in search for something more than this nothingness? My thoughts turned to wondered amazement as I considered the possibility that I am not a single entity moving alone through the darkness without a shape or form. In fact there had been the voice speaking to me and telling me there was a place prepared for me; I had only to pass through to that direction. And I began to feel as if there was a purpose to whom and what I must be as I traveled in darkness to a place prepared for me.
What would I see? Would there be others like me? Would I finally perceive my form? Then I could finally understand the purpose of my being – yes I would be able to discern my purpose when I came into contact with others like me! Suddenly I passed through a new substance! Water was all around me; and a voice this is the Universe and its Sea of Possibilities I have prepared for you. I asked the voice, “How will I know my purpose in this vast Universal possibility? You are a part of it already came the response; you have only to share yourself through connecting with others in this realm. “Where are the others?” I asked!
The pressure moved all about me and then a light engulfed me and at once I could see that I was a light connected to a stream of light beings which were connected to the movement and direction the light was traveling. The Love….The Love flowing through this stream of light was the essence of my being and we all shared this love! Through this loving union which is; given and shared through the motion of our unified direction; you form the heavenly body of one” spoke again the voice of the wind.
Tears reached my eyes and dropped down through the heavens as newly born lights which suddenly became crystallized and hardened into the stars of the universe. All of these beings of etherian light which I could see did mirror back to me that which I also was. Our voices consciously sang in unison, we are the love that gives life in the heavens, this life becomes living love as such we share and mirror the light of our life back out as we reach out connect to, and receive each other into our union. We are One and because of us the “All One, who is invisible and without embodiment” in us, has a way to Love All through us. It is the invisible Love that connects to all lives bringing each new birth of a soul into its journey through creation. The Circle that is Un-ending, it is the Circle of Life Immortal.