Dear Mark Hamilton,
Not really knowing how to start this, I will simply say that I am grateful for the fact that I got the opportunity to read the manuscripts of Mark Hamilton and to join the Neothink Society. It honestly has drastically changed my life for the much better. I realize that I do not have our society’s indicator of this – a lot of money – yet, but that is coming and in the meantime, everything else I could ask for has begun to happen.
Life was not easy for me as far back as I can remember. I was different – hopelessly so – as a child, and got picked on at school. I was always depressed and sad to begin with, and the bullying didn’t help. So I withdrew from people as much as I could. It made sense to a six-year-old mind, but it caught up with me later in life. The roof eventually fell in from this attempt to cope, as it was bound to. I somehow survived this, although it took a hospital stay, and I went on with life as best I could. I wanted to let people know what I had learned – that it doesn’t matter how far down you get, you can always come back if you want to badly enough. I could not really talk to people very well, but I could reach out to them through music. I had always played some kind of instrument. Now I focused on instruments I could write songs on, and began to do so. I went to college and majored in music. For the first time I really enjoyed learning in a school environment. Although I started late due to a housing crunch on the campus of the college that accepted me, I still got the curriculum done in three years. I was still 21 when I graduated. But then the problems started again.
I had one problem that I could not figure out how to solve. I knew what I wanted to do with my life, but I had no idea how to make it profitable or to get myself to a point financially where I could do my essence without the need to survive interfering with that. It would take me a long time to detail and explain all the failures I had trying to figure this out. But I did eventually figure out why my life had played out as it had and why it seemed I had so much trouble finding opportunity and then thinking clearly when it came.
I suppose I should be grateful in a way for all that went wrong and all the pain that came with it, because it resulted in my trying to get help to find the answers to make things better, as they had gotten so bad that I was not going to be able to go on with things as they were. This had been a familiar theme in my life. But I eventually was able to find out that the depression I was suffering from was due to a chemical imbalance in my brain. The chemical imbalance also left me with attention deficit disorder (ADD) and seasonal affective disorder. This was not the happiest news, but now at least I knew the stuff was there so I could begin to figure out how to deal with all of it and not just a part.
The depression is very hard and it has to be fought all the time, and with the seasonal affective disorder it is worse in winter, but I think the ADD might be worse in a way, because I never know when it will strike. I am not stupid, but I will look like it when I get struck by it. I have forgotten procedures at work that I have done many times before. Trying to multitask under pressure definitely does not work very well. There can be times where I can’t think at all. I just have to let it pass and try to remain calm and I will get better. But being able to recognize how this worked and what it did to me helped me to see how and why my life had unfolded the way it did.
The day came when I got my first letter from Mark Hamilton, inviting me to read the Neothink manuscripts and ultimately to join the Neothink Society. I was intrigued and I started to get them, although my tough times were by no means over and it was a real struggle to afford them. But I started reading and I was struck again and again with how I knew this stuff to be dead right, because I had already experienced or come to think the same with what I was reading. I was looking forward to putting all of this knowledge to work for me.
But here again my different-working brain began to get in the way. I could not seem to snap all of the puzzle pieces together to successfully apply all of the principles I had read about, and derive the benefit from them. I kept trying, and kept reading, but also kept struggling.
One day I received a letter from Mr. Hamilton stating that there was going to be a Neothink summit in Chicago, IL. At it, they would announce the 2012 Twelve Visions Party presidential candidate. I thought at first, Wow! This would be cool! I’ve got to go!
But then I started to think about it. I would be going into a crowd of people I didn’t know, and I have trouble with even one-on-one social situations. I might be able to afford it as it was relatively close to where I lived, but still, it would be a sacrifice. And what if it turned out to be another letdown in a life full of them? It was always tough to get time off from my job, and then if I got it, even tougher to get done by when I was supposed to.
I got the time off, and I asked for extra to be sure it worked out and I got that too. I had the cash to make the room reservation and did so. Even so, I was still going back and forth with myself even as I packed and took my duffel bag down to the truck. But I went. It was murder to get myself to do it, but I went.
This testimonial is already long, so suffice it to say the summit was really worthwhile to have gone to. I met several other Society members, learned about the various conference calls, purchased some more literature and stayed in touch with some associations I had made. One of them became my life coach, who helped mentor me and with the extra help I was finally able to begin to apply all of the Neothink that I had read. I began to think much better and much more positively, and I was able to grow to a point that I could see my life had changed for the much better, even if others around me could not. Yes, the depression and ADD remained struggles and they still do. But I am better able to handle them now, and able to progress in spite of them. At the time of this testimonial I have finished my album. I will talk about this a little as it shows how my thinking has progressed.
I have been writing songs for almost 30 years now. But I had never tried to put an album together. I did not have a studio environment or others who were interested enough to help me. So I did not do it. I was also stuck by the thought that if I was going to be able to do this music – my essence – I would need to get the money first so I could quit my job and just do it. I had had many failures doing this before Neothink, and even after. My e-commerce business went under because, although I had a good product that I had tested and found would be profitable, I could not get the suppliers I had lined up to give me a price break I needed to compete with the large retailers. So, at this point, a bit frustrated, I said to heck with it, basically. I began recording in my two-bedroom apartment with its very thin walls and all the noise from the apartments and neighborhood around me. I had always thought there was no way it would work, but I turned out to be wrong. I did not think I would be able to play all the partsor all of the instruments well enough, but I was wrong again. I was not sure I would be able to figure out how to work the recording software in my computer, but I was able to learn enough to where I could get it to work and was able to ask others at local music stores to learn how to get the recordings to where I could transfer them onto media or share them. I converted my failed business entity, with its tax identification numbers, into my own music publishing company. Now I am working on securing the copyrighting and getting the album released to outlets where many will hear it. It would be much easier if the money amount had grown equally with all the other growth I have made, but I am working around it as best I can. I may have to eat a little less or perhaps I can get crowd funding, but I will not stop. In fact, I have learned I can’t.
I will share with you now something I have learned through the journey this life has taken me on. For years I tried to do the safe thing, the expected thing, and did not do my essence or my dream. The result of that was that I began the long slow decline. I began to lose a lot of memory due to stress and had many other medical problems. I am grateful to have seen that for the reason that it makes it easier to keep pressing on now. The point is this: Yes, it will cost you a lot to go after your dream, but it will cost you even more if you don’t. I have the medical history and the scars now – literally – to prove it. But I am grateful to Mark Hamilton for his invitation into the Neothink Society and grateful to my life coach and mentor, and grateful to others in the Society who have reached out to me as well. I have hope that I will accomplish my dream now, something for a long time I did not have, and I am well on the way. Even better, I can see it happening – I can picture it now – and so I can believe it will. We become what we think about most of the time, and with the help of the Neothink manuscripts and someone’s help to apply the principles in them, I am able to think now like I have to so I can succeed and I can catch myself when I slip up and get back on track. This is an ability and a power I did not have before, and it is making all the difference.
When I began my Neothink journey, I had to wonder: Was there room in the Neothink Society for a Neothinker who couldn’t think? With my brain chemistry, there would be times, no matter how diligent I was, where that was the case. As it turned out, this stuff would even work for someone like me. I really wish I could tell you right now that “I made it”, but that day is coming and I am well on the way. Thanks to Mr. Hamilton and all in the Society who have helped to make this happen. They know who they are.