I remember when I first got the Neothink outline in the mail. It stood out from all the other rip off scam artist offers for a better life. When I received it in the mail, I like many other millions of people, was desperate. I still am desperate, but much worse off. In fact, I feel like the people I read about in the first piece of Neothink literature: on the verge of foreclosure, possible break-up of a nine year relationship, $1,000 left to my name on an almost maxed-out credit card, cars breaking down (I live an hour away from work), wondering if I’m going to get fired, waking up with nightmares about numbers, wondering when this Neothink stuff is ever going to pay off (especially since they wanted so much money to start with). At least that’s how I felt when I got up this morning.
Then, I checked my email and there was your request for this testimonial. In reality, I did all the reading. I don’t regret paying $100 for a 1,000+ page book that contained a lovely story, if nothing else. I am a high school English teacher afterall. But what resonated with me the most of all of the Neothink literature, was the story of Miss Annabelle’s Secrets and the plan for mini-days. My ultimate favorite is having my students draw a grid, and cross off the amount of boxes for each year of their lives to come, according to the current national life expectancy average, just so they can see the preciousness of each day and that life is Not a long linear number line that stretches out into forever, at least not yet today, that is.
I quit smoking ciggarettes this summer after smoking for 13 years. I have smoked since I was 16 years old. I kept hearing the haunting Neothink literature in my mind, and the advice I have internalized as a result. Stop Smoking! Don’t be stagnant! You’ve been down that road! You are a school teacher, you should not be a smoker!! I told myself these things and finally I just stopped, Cold Turkey! The desire to not be stagnant was the strongest theme. Not to mention that my boyfriend hates smoking and that my quitting has made him very happy.
I tried the mini-days approach, and I have found that it has stream-lined my ability to teach my students. I have become a much more relaxed and focussed teacher. I always had the love, I just needed a tool. Now, a year later, even though I am only on the end of level Two, I still believe that the Neothink way is creeping into my life. Maybe I have been too impatient? However, I cannot deny that with regard to my career, I am reaping the rewards of Neothink mini day agendas.
Unfortunately, school teachers don’t make quite enough to have the life I really want. Even if I was rich, I would still teach school. I never wanted to live in some mansion, but I do like wide open spaces and grew up on very large pieces of land that allowed me to be me. Since I have entered the anticivilization, I have realized in a very short amount of time, how easy it is for people to become disillusioned by the false promises of society. I wasn’t naive to the world, per se. I have worked every job they will let a woman do, trying to get myself college with a good credit score so that when I got done, the “gate keepers” of the credit world would finally let me have My life. My boyfriend jumped off the dock with me. We bought this house and only a year later we are ruined… and not because I can’t do math either. Let’s just say that the credit world is fickled.
In the beginning, I was on your A-Team. I did my homework, I read every private moment I had. No one knows what I am doing, or trying to do. I didn’t want Neothink to end up some scam and me all embarrassed. Not even the man I live with knows about the books. It has been very hard for me to keep up in secret, and in a state of being where no one would believe me, and no one but me knows that there has to be something to this Neothink stuff.
Just getting my computer to work and gain access has been difficult. I am not a computer person. My boyfriend is, but he doesn’t know what I am doing.Maybe I have been too impatient? Maybe I missed crucial junctures like “phase two” and am just hanging on by a thread now. I am too late to salvage anything? Am I just “going down”? Should I just claim bankruptcy?
I do feel like I have been an observer for the past two months. But I have not been an observer of Neothink movements that I am not a part of by choice. I have been an observer of myself wanting to be a part of those movements, to sign myself up to organize, to be active. But I think, for the first time in my life that I was actually so depressed, I couldn’t do anything about it. The anticivilization has almost paralyzed me. I was happy to see your email asking for this testimonial. I have made me active in NT again. I will try to get caught up with my levels, as I am overdue. I am just waiting for the next big thing to happen to me so that I don’t have to leave my home, or get fired from my job because I can’t make it to work because me car is broken down, or lose my love of nine years because we are being swallowed by debt and a situation we did not create. I hope you really read this.