I am thrilled, at last, to communicate directly with other members of the Neothink Society…I am through books one and two, am yet waiting upon delivery of Miss Anabelle’s secrets…here will be my home, where I can be assured of others whom I know will fully understand me(such a perilous journey it has been to finally get here)…I am most pleased to realize the best way to use my own powerful substance and influence appropriately which has been a cumbersome worry for me at least 17 months, even before discovering Neothink and the Society…for all ethical and moral concerns that go along, both with my own substance, and now, as a responsible member of the Association. To fully tame this huge beast has been an enormous, immense challenge…a powerfully incriminating experience, as well as personally, stigmatizing to be felt/thought of/known to others as “anti-Christ”…subjected also to the more rare experience of being designated as bi-polar, having “paranoid/schizophrenia”…where I had to create(secretly) mind space in order just to survive, according to a special language, through codes, words and numbers which I developed on my own(way back in the 1980’s)..of course, now it has evolved to the place where I am able to fully visualize according to good alignment, “in the moments” of my day which are temporal encounters with eternity…according to what I understand to be “the power of attraction”—a whole other experience I had to manage and bring under control…I have been subjected to a prophet’s experience, unfortunately, where, in my best description, one is subjected to all that isn’t real or true by all others…that, along with all of the mental torment and even physical anguish that accompanies…I care nothing for the notion of being designated as a “prophet”, especially to be rid of all altruistic influences that would lure me into serving, and that, inappropriately, other religions…as I spoke to my own father, years ago..”..I just want to be Happy”..I have come to realize, honestly and now with contempt, most all religious figures in our world today to be misguided, manipulative(politically), and substantively unqualified to even portray/represent whom they are speaking of, or what they are talking about…this is now perfectly clarified for me through the writing of Dr. W. himself…for having been fully stigmatized by the whole experience already some 17 months ago, there is no option for me, but to fully accept who and what I am—therefore, the best/only option for me is to join with the Society…thank Goodness they found me, faced with the prospect of having to finish this on my own…I wish to move, more immediately, out of the narrow experience of stigmatization, along with its deprivation and extreme vulnerability to a better place, access to a wider range, where to finally experience, honestly, the goodness of valuable others, along with the even more powerful Blessings of Life…where I can fully disregard the misery of that experience…I am interested in learning music(with guitar) and the possibility of becoming a screen actor, depending on how much freedom my new, realized responsibilities will allow…having been subjected to years of study in theology, philosophy, mythology, and, peculiarly with psychology I will also contemplate writing, speaking to the suffrage of individuals subjected to a similar experience that I had, as well as to the community of psychiatrists and psychologists who(unfortunately) tend to them, at the very least…more fully adjusted to this new, transformational experience…I have mental stability/clarity/focus, thanks especially to a vision of someone I recognize, though have not yet met personally…appeared despite the fact that I was dreaming, which Dr. W, clearly identifies as “thinking in reverse”, the mind’s method of dispensing refuse…have yet to gain all of my emotional surety, but that will come, I know, when I finally, fully rest in the fullness of peace, physically and mentally.
I refer to as “Greater C” the greater consciousness which speaks to me at regular intervals..even more specifically do I receive word that I regard, most assuredly as a message from Zon Himself..(I refer to as “Z”)…without their help I would not have properly realized the help I need to overcome the natural forces at work to start making my transition, more fully into the world of Neothink…naturally, according to Grace, Love is the only power that can bring us there, despite all that is really at stake…thanks especially to the work and writings of Mark Hamilton for that…I am happy to realize that I am, naturally, neither vindictive nor judgmental…it gave me a fright to realize what happened to Ann Rand,(her writings I have not yet read), having learned for some time, there is not one great/good philosopher who did not suffer tragedy, it seems, near to the end of their life and the goal of their life’s work…my own fear of falling into mysticism before getting here…It is a great comfort to me that for all of us associated with the Society, there is always “more than meets the eye”..both concerning we as individuals, and more so in our relationship with the association itself…governed by the power of omniscience always at work…I feel sure of that. With that assurance we may all move confidently out of the former world, now experiencing a crisis of self-imposed misunderstanding, to the other worlds of Neothink and the Neothink mind…we are not about the fear or monstrous stigma they would dishonestly impose on us…miraculously, it would seem, we are all about Goodness, Love, Life, Beauty…contrary to all their reasoning…Erotically, Ironically…as Joseph Campbell said:”..Nature intends the grail..” Of which we do not have to be afraid of nor ashamed, once fully vested into us…we may also move with confidence beyond the issues of faith, to realize this world now…as a quote, reiterated from a good, Christian, life concept……” The Best is Yet to Come!!”…. For all of us who move into Neothink, that day is already here. Glorious praise and thanks(I have to say) unto Dr. Wallace., and his son, Mark Hamilton for putting this all together…and to all of you, for being here.
Anyone, please, rebuff me for saying anything inappropriately, either for what I said or how I said it…I am trusting the sharpest, clearest minds in the world to always keep me in line.
Thanks again to all, and I hope I may come to know, at least some of you, personally.