I am still a little confused about how i was chosen

I am still a little confused about how i was chosen, but all the information is not strange to me i was very surprise at how much of this was already talked about amongst me and my daughter before i received these books and how many of my questions were confirmed. I was some how happy that i was right and that i saved my life that I am in control of what happens to me and what didn’t happen, i have lots of friends and they love me and i them. i really people and seeing them smile gives me great joy . but i for some reason I am unable to find romantic love for myself which makes sad and lonely sometimes, I have a lot to say and i know you cant answer all my questions or hear all so ill stop here. Thank you Mark Hamilton
Rhonda