My biggest question is “Why me”?

Hi Mr. Hamilton. My biggest question is “Why me”? I don’t have a computer so sending comments on my phone. I have read all three of the heirloom manuscripts in less than four months. Probably more pages than what I have read since my school days. I’m 57 and really tired of my routine rut. I’m struggling with my “Friday night essence” so many things that I wanted when I was young. So many dreams that went away because of the anti civilization and it’s control on life and it’s dream destruction. Want to meet a scientist or a chemist to see if this idea I have is too far gone or if it is really a possibility. Neither area is in my realm of knowledge. Just got your book “Forbidden Revelation” Back to reading. I can get e-mails on my phone but can’t reply to them. Would love to hear from you or some upper members of the society. Guess I need to get a computer! That will be another hurdle since I’ve never had one before.
Robert W