The only problem i have is finding my Friday night essence

I’m on my third book now and it is a fantastic story. I’ll tell u that when im reading this book. I can feel every emotion deep down inside almost like I’m apart of them in every way! Like we are family! The only problem i have is finding my Friday night essence cause i cant remember much of my childhood. I’m trying very hard to think about it but i cant come up anything
James S