During my life I have always felt outside looking in

During my life I have always felt outside looking in watching people be cruel for no reason. This I have always disagreed with wanting to change their cruel ways, or install values to stop the irrational nonsense. I have always felt this way. I feel what I’m reading it’s actually kind of scary how much I can relate. I have so much more to say but I think I should listen or read first before I have an pre. understanding that could be wrong.
I do feel like a part of my mind just opened and instantly I felt my true self already so fast it’s got me truly shocked. Physically & emotionally it was felt for this I have no explanation.
Robert M.